Everybody has a quest, or a problem they would like to solve. This I truly believe.
It could be Fermat’s Last Theorem (wait, that’s been solved) or something from Graph Theory. Could be Cold Fusion. (I had a client who wanted to make a video documentary on the subject.) Or a cure for cancer. Maybe all it takes is eating pumpkin seeds. Who knows? We all want to believe that we have something special to impart to the universe. A little gift that we can leave behind.
Now I find myself with some time on my hands. It’s true I’m facing a truly horrific job market. Just watched a longtime development partner’s business implode. He wouldn’t take seriously my warnings to tighten up his ship, even when I found and shared with him a subdomain that was blatantly hacked in February of this year.
I could send out 50 resumes a day, I guess, and hope to hear something back, but that’s really not my style. I am going after my own Holy Grail. It involves me getting significantly more technical (hardware, networking, and OS as well as client-side) so that’s always a plus. In every business I’ve run, I’ve delegated as much as possible — while taking primary responsibility for marketing, sales, bookkeeping, raising capital, and market research / long term strategy. All of those tasks take time — a lot more than you would think. I am just going to put those tasks by the wayside for a while and concentrate on tech. Some of what I’m doing relates to my work on Lotus Petal Architecture. That part may actually be marketable in a year or three. Some of it is pure creative inquiry. I think that’s the best way to describe my goals and motivation, since I’m not a scientist (self-taught, took one computer science class in college in PASCAL, plus a summer course in Java).
I have the luxury right now of living cheap and living well. For instance, I found out you could buy a two-lb bag of bacon ends and pieces at the local Safeway for only $6. Great in salads. I like it with some fresh strawberries, spring greens, hard boiled eggs, olive oil and lemon juice. Plus of course salt and pepper. Maybe I’ll post a picture later.
“The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.”
– Ecclesiastes 9:11